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Officially single again. I can't date anyone because I'm interested in this one guy and no matter how hard I try, nobody seems to measure up, which is kinda crazy because I don't know him real well. But I keep trying to fight it and I instead of going away, I actually thought to myself the other day that I love him. I don't know what to do. I could really use some stronger guidance than I'm getting. I cried a few times at work today, but I made it through. I'm trying to quit smoking, but I took the patch off early and had one so far. Will try again tomorrow. I'm going through a lot of stuff and it's tough, but I guess that's what I'm built for. I'm scared that this won't work out, but what if it does?