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Guess it's been a bit. Kenzie told mom that at first he'll just come over here to see Neil. So that's quite a relief if it's true. I'm in the third trimester now. I feel like I'm not ready but I'm sure as hell going to do my best. I'm sick of being lonely. I'm a bit depressed but mostly I have little motivation. I've been trying to read, at least. I wish I could just wave a magic wand and have my life in order. I'm tired a lot. Work is tough but I'm going to stick it out as long as I can. I also don't plan on taking too much off if I can help it. I just want to be a good person and I struggle with it a lot. But I guess I could be worse, too. And nobody's perfect.