043020

Mostly, I've just been eating, sleeping, and wasting time. I have intentions of doing things, but I'm so tired. I want to go back to work. I need to finish my book. I have projects to work on. Sometimes I think about Kenzie and I just cry. I don't know what I'm doing but I'm trying to be good for the baby.

041420

Stressed out.

Wrote a little. Colored a bit. Hit the punching bag until my knuckles cracked. Read a couple chapters. Sang all of Nirvana unplugged. Have been antisocializing most of the day. If I would've known today would be crazy, I would've made a counseling appointment for this week. Being harassed in more ways than one. Took a bath. Showered yesterday.